Wednesday, October 01, 2008
A thought:We constantly hear Deuteronomy 28:13, that we'll be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath. I sometimes wonder, how can i be the head when i'm not a leader in scl? how can i be above when so many people have better grades than me, and i'll bet a good bunch of them aren't believers.
But then again, when you are chosen by God, u need not be a leader, but u'll have more influence then them. You may not think you're much of a leader, but look at your spheres of influence. How many people do you influence, and how much?
Well, ya.. My good friends listen to me, kinda. Oh and some of my CCA peeps listen to me. Well, my clique listens to me. That guy from my class always asks me from advice. That other guy from another class always eats with me. I help to do collect study hours in cell. And... Wait... wait.... I actually do have alot of influence.. Perhaps even more so then the leaders in my school?
God puts us in places and situations where we glorify Him the most, whether we like it or not, whether we know it or not. And why is it that sometimes we don't believe that it'll really happen, that we'll be the head? We have so much faith that the sun will rise tomorrow! And then there's God who has promised that His promises will be fulfilled. So who promised the sun will rise tomorrow?
Its hard, but i'm gonna trust that He will pull through for me. That all the knots in my head are gonna become untangled soon. I'm gonna trust that whatever i'm going through now, is all part of His plan. I'm gonna trust that the desires of my heart, He will provide for. I'm gonna trust that i can revere His majesty well enough! =)
anyway.. its been a whoop-dee-doop since i last blogged.. so many things.. just gotta get promos, op and chi out of my hair, along with a few other problems.. mom is getting very freakily accurate in her random spurts.. doubt she means it but its super accurate.. this is like the third one at least.. life's getting weird... I wanna learn bass and get a new guitar.. i want new head phones.. i wanna be able to fulfill my building fund for the first time like ever.. i want so many things.. but i trust God will suffice.. maybe i'll get a job, maybe i'll start saving up like heck, i'll do my part while God does His! =) my brains kinda getting fried thinking about a certain issue that someone should noe about.. but anyway.. gotta deal with it and move on to more pressing issues like, how do i improve, technically and spiritually to be a good CG Guitarist? life is getting weird.. i'm getting weird.. its weird isn't it?
tomorrow's physics SPA and i'm half prepared.. fri is math and i'm 60% prepared.. mon is physics, i'm 43% prepared.. chem SPA, kinda 80% prepared.. life's good.. looking forward to partying after promos, op and chi.. and yes miss china girl (that's you caroline cai!), we're gonna par-teh after everything's over!
i hope i'm still alive to post the next post..
Signing off,
Tan Zhi Hao Gabriel =)
11:03 PM
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